I have friends coming to do smoke drawings tonight. I am alone at the present and am feeling a bit off. I need T.

I have satiated my physical desires with erotica, but some of it was not exactly great. No details here.
I want to have body contact. Skin on skin. Breath on my face. Sweat in my hair and behind my knees. I want to hear panting in my ear behind me then above me.
I have to wait a month and four days till he comes and I am going stir crazy! I have some dramatic classical playing and maybe it is setting my mood a bit more extreme.  Should I put on some lounge?   How about some Ani Difranco.   Distractions are everywhere and yet my mind keeps wandering back to T and how much I long for him.   Smoke drawings are one of my favorite pastimes so I look forward to the female company and drinking some wine and eating some food until late.  Then I will call him and hear his breath through the phone.